Showing posts with label regret. Show all posts
Showing posts with label regret. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Red the red that fury blinds

Your presence seems to press my buttons
And my buttons be high
My presence seems to press your buttons
And your buttons be nigh

And so now are you suppose to be considered my ex
Since only for a bit we tangled and mangled our words
On a couch we cuddled and giggled about our success
Only to have it fade within days
Now we hold each other at length
Such a short bout it was and fast to conclude

So it was, what is was
A sparkle and flame, rose too high
And out of control, for both of us

Another story to keep and to use against
our "I told you so" mentality

But we did
"destroyed each other, and did not make history"...

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Not my Car...

With a glance, I vision the past in which we first met
Your mind is already made, with your own first look
Soon to be overturned with the conversational array of banter
and a look that makes you confused and curious
as I raise my head back over the table

On a couch, in a house, on a street, on the east side
we continue to battle our beliefs and bruises
And in a test of my interest, you leave
And stubborn as I am, retreat to the next opponent
Much more and less, we eventually rebound
Only your need is far more exceeded than mine
For now your ease is calmed with my presence

Yet you continue to throw hoops for me to jump through
And I little by little embrace your tactics
And break your concentration
And resolve your intentions

At the request of the time and limits set upon the party
We exit the premises and conclude to our modes of transportations
As I in the state of my consumption
Am not allowed to pursue my course

For your judgement is not whether I am capable
But for your own lingering temptations
I am convinced to enter an agreement with your direction
While others are not invited, we now alone
At your request

Long distance to get back to our starting point
And so our chance to revive the night is conquered
Assumptions are smoothed out and explained
Yet we hold back our intentions

After all the obstacles of the night
We end up in the parking lot of the place that started it all
Lies upon lies are spewed from our mouths
Yet you still believe me, only for your own amusement

You smirk and giggle at my nervousness
and awkward stance, as I question your motives
Your clear of your stance and make it so
You withhold your actions, in fear of consequences

As I do not give you what you wanted, you insist
As I give you what you insist, you overcome
As I resist you, you resist
And we end up on our own path...



to be continued for our next encounter...


Monday, September 9, 2013

When absence times out

Only stay afar, to see when You may depart
The longer the wait, the longer the freight
upon my guilt...

On a bridge You sit shapeshifted and wait
while I stare from a distance
My feet cemented, my mind Demented
of thoughts for you...

...

Side to side you gaze in search
of My pupils that surround a glow green
Slowly and hesitantly you leave
Looking back over shoulder one last time

My reason, for such an act
would be to save You the sorrow of my ways
Your innocence, is what saved you
on that leaf dropping evening

As deviant my heart
somehow, some reason declared
a pinch of pain, was worth it...

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

A Trail

Such a trail I leave for You
Catch me if you can
Scream more and struggle to win

Alas it has come this confrontational fit
Lay down this gauntlet and watch You
Sleeplessly stray sideways...

Sure I would rain pain upon Your heart
And Crush your spine with ease
But nothing more pleasurable than planting the seed of doubt
and watch You question your own existence...

Worst enemy is within, and this is a test
relate all these words, try to match them to You
Rise Your interest and begin contesting your beliefs
Challenge and Reason with yourself...

Give it all thought and come out numb

The more you convince Yourself, the deeper the hole
The Hole which will consume
Your opinion...

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Little bit Darker? No?



To make matters worse
As I drag "you" from that Hearse

Bits and Pieces, left all alone
such a Vagrant drone
Come from our Hearts...

Deep within
We spin
Out of Control

Emotional dysthymia
Cured by a Breathing Kiss
delivers an utmost Bliss

but as "you" can see
that can not be

My dear Corpse...

How you Feeling?

Tell me how "You" really Feel
And I will Peel
the Layers of regret
from your Subset...

Ponder along
Wonder along
or merely tag
You are it...

Such a simple Game
it is all the same
when it comes to blame
it is all the same

Pickle...

And now that, that wrench
is thrown
And "You" fall from your throne
welcome to below
from that pillar "You" once stood...

On and On, I could go
with this one man show
But alas, the contents of my cranium default

But wait there is more


to be continued...



Try to Figure out

When Hours
Turn Sour
and Power
to Create Cease

One glance
turns my Trance
turns my Fixation
into Strangulation...

 Care not to Follow
For You may wallow
all you want, while waiting
for an explanation...

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Random Memory: Double Trouble


Alone we sat, in my coloured room, with signatures of those who visited,
red heart shaped trophies from a high school game, taped randomly between poetry and flowers. Incense here and one over there. "where is my mind?" playing over and over on my mixed tape. Knock Knock, echoes on the downstairs side door, I hesitantly remove myself, to see who would be knocking this late. To my surprise, it is the one that should not have been, not now. While one waits up, and one questions me down. In the middle I ponder, ponder how one should handle the situation. But to my amazement, later my amusement. The one below, has come to let me know that our "situational relationship" is not operational (who actually says that?, she came to dump me). No matter, even though one would think that since we have not talked in weeks, that our "situational relationship" was indeed ended...
Right, you ask, what about the one above. Well, seems the walls in that old house are not the best of being a sound barrier. For she obviously heard our conversation. That and the look on her face when I returned. Also the fact that she threw my mixed tape at me.
So there I lay, without my "pixies", without my significant other. Only thing I have left is the memory and ammunition to write about it, so many years later...

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Fair Game

Was warned, and scorned
Battled and Bruised
yet Still I Cruised

Into your Arms,
Into your Thorns,
Blindly...

Still I Stand
without Demand
Regrets...

One Last time
Just to be sure
I need no cure
Relinquish...

Thursday, June 27, 2013

The one Red head

In the early morning,
As I sit on the top step, and You stand below
Looking up at Me
I ask for you to come closer,
As that was your intention...

The look on your Face
Questions my Existence,
The smiles we exchange
Lead us only to the inevitable...

Such curls and pearls hang
as the Sun shines through
Your fiery hair
Can not help, but stare...

Strong emotions have made this memory last
Now in words, may it last forever...

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Weakness

You feed upon my Weaknesses
And I allow you...

I destroy your Strengths
And you allow me...

We share and compare
Our Intentions
Are we meant to Last?